Wednesday, March 29, 2006
we lost to rgs. hias. depressing. played match, trained, for a total of 7 hours. i feel like dying right now. i wanna pon sch tmr. but cannot. got music hahhaa (: YAY. guitar lessons, here i come! (: hias
it really has came to a juncture where its intolarable.
if i had not control i would have blown up.
this, that, everythings my faults. the problem always lies with me.
well has it EVER occurred to u that the problem MAY lie with YOU?
whatever.
when u're wrong. somehow or another, its my fault.
when u're at fault. somwhow or another, its still my fault.
when i was doing the right thing, its also still my fault.
im just so sick of this already. freaking pissed.
never thot that it would turn out this way.
had i known, i wouldnt have gotten into this mess.
all it does is that it makes me worry even more about uneccesary stuff.
but its all too late.
sunk to deep.
unable to pull myself up.
im losing myself
and its all cos of u.
never thot this would mean so much.
the slightest thing u do. would cause the biggest emotional pain for me.
it was just a big mistake right from the start.
freak.
leave me alone now.
P.S. thanks for the happy moments u spent with me darling. i <3 you
leaveeeeeeeee like everything else 5:41 AM
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